Next month sees the release of my latest novel Bestial
Burdens (Cephalopress). For many reasons, I’m incredibly excited about having
a new book coming out. First and foremost, because I think it’s a great piece
work. Then again, I would say that, I’m the author and naturally biased in such
matters. But what perhaps gives me the greatest satisfaction in seeing Bestial
Burdens finally hit the bookshelves – physical, virtual or otherwise – is that
I actually wrote the book nine years ago.
That’s right –
nine long years between typing The End and seeing the book in print.
By any standards,
that’s a long time. In context, it took two years to build the Eiffel Tower,
three years the Titanic (not that she lasted very long), ten years your average
Pyramid (if that was heavily labour-intensive work) and twenty years, the Great
Wall of China, all 13,000 miles of it.
Very vividly
(and not without a true sense of fondness), I remember working on the late
drafts of the novel, in a quiet little cottage on the coast, refining the
story, getting it down to the bare bones – or as Columbo used to say: “Just the
facts, ma’am” – and thinking, with more and more conviction each day, that I’d written
something quite unique, something, with a mix of sex and therapy, that would be
a complete piece of piss, easy sell, to any agent or publisher I might happen
to approach. In itself, the opening line should rightly have won any number of prestigious
literary awards (who knows, it might still?):
When Lucas
McGoldrick walked into my office, I had no idea he’d starred in infamous
seventies porn film Animal Farm.
Put simply, I
thought, after much trial and a huge amount of rudimentary error, I’d finally
found my voice, that I’d finally written my BREAKTHROUGH NOVEL.
With great care, I
crafted an eye-catching approach letter to literary agents. In all, I selected
around 25, some of whom had requested full manuscripts before, some of whom I’d
actually met face to face to discuss the possibility of taking me on as a
client. I didn’t see that there could be any way that I wouldn’t be fighting off
the great and the good amongst them with the literary equivalent of a shitty
stick.
Imagine my disappointment,
my despair, when I received not one single full manuscript request, when each approach
letter/email I sent out was summarily rejected – or ignored.
Months passed, twelve
of them, a year, two years, three…you get the picture. From time to time, I’d
take the manuscript out again, read it, tweak a few things here and there, and
send it off to an independent publisher, more in hope than any real conviction.
And I guess there comes a time when you admit defeat to yourself, when you feel
that this or that book or short story or poem just isn’t ever going to see the
light of day, that – and this is of course the most soul-crushingly unwanted
admission of all –it simply isn’t good enough to be published, full-stop.
Around that time,
I became interested (almost obsessively so) in the I Ching, the ancient book of
changes. In terms of the publishing industry, with some pretty stunning failures
already under my belt, I’d reached a point which is probably best described by
that great Einstein quote (and forgive the paraphrase) – “Insanity is best defined
by doing the same things over and over again, and expecting the same results”.
And that’s what it felt like, holing myself up in a room for months on end,
writing a book, sending it out to agents and publishers, and receiving blanket
rejection slips.
Hamsters on wheels
make more real, tangible progress.
Long story short.
I changed tack. I started to consult the I Ching about every single facet of my
life, not just my writing. If I had to make a choice, if something was bugging,
me, I’d write it down, like a little piece of flash fiction in its own right, I’d
toss the coins and build my hexagrams, I’d read the text and commentaries and,
where possible (and often this went against my better judgement, against basic common
garden common sense), I followed the advice.
During this period,
one phrase kept cropping up again and again and again – in truth, for someone like
me, someone about as spiritual as a tin of economy dog food, it started to get
on my tits – perseverance furthers.
Perhaps there’s nothing
particularly profound or inspiring about anything I did back then. If you love
doing something – manually disconnecting nasal hairs, playing pick-up sticks
with your arse-cheeks, writing a novel – you’ll carry on doing it no matter
what. No matter how many houses you could redecorate with rejection slips. No
matter how many people tell you that you’ll never produce anything of any worth
or merit.
And nine years
later, on April 1st of the 2020, Bestial Burdens will officially be released.
Click on the link below to order your copy of the book:
https://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/1650323808/ref=dbs_a_def_rwt_bibl_vppi_i0
https://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/1650323808/ref=dbs_a_def_rwt_bibl_vppi_i0
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